I Am Not Strong Enough.

A few days ago I was in the office and Routt went into one of the bathrooms. A few moments later I heard him struggling to open the door. He could go in but wasn’t strong enough to open the door on the way back out.

It reminded me of a time when I was little. I was with my dad at his office, too. I entered the bathroom, and he knew the door would swell and stick during the changing seasons. He knew I would get stuck in the bathroom. He left his office and stood outside the door. He recalls hearing me try and open the door. Then He heard me say to myself “I am tough, I am tough” Before throwing all my weight into the outswinging door. It didn’t move. After that I screamed in fear for my dad, but I did not need to be afraid because he knew I was in trouble and was already there.

There are moments in my life when I realize I am not strong enough.
I will watch one of my children and think, "I am not strong enough to raise them to adulthood."
Sometimes I avoid difficult situations or blow up in anger because I fear being vulnerable. I am not emotionally confident enough to have healthy confrontation.
I often will look at my wife's eyes while she is not paying attention and realize “I am not enough”

There are many moments in my life when reality sets in, and I know I am not enough. That's a truth. I am often irresponsible, cowardly, anxious, angry, immature, or lazy. I pick a terrible character quality and embody that from time to time.

I don’t mind sharing these things about myself because I know this is universal. There are moments in your life where you don’t measure up to the task. You are not strong enough.

When these moments of realization come, it's a good reminder not to fear but to call on God for help because he already knows you need help and He is near.

Bless you.

Pastor